My bum finger and my shitty life

Well, my life isn't really THAT shitty, but it's not amazing either. The last three days at work have been pretty long and awful to be quite honest. We only get temporary moments of business and the rest of the time I feel like I'm just wondering around the store trying to find something to do. Last night the last two hours felt longer than the entire day. There was essentially nothing to do and the customers that were in the store didn't need help with anything, so I literally sat at the front counter staring off into space. For a moment I actually missed Homeward Bound because at least we had internet access so when I was REALLY bored I could surf the internet or chat with Chris on facebook, but it is banned at this store so the only website I can look at is the Blick website, and there is only so much enjoyment I can get out of looking at art supplies.

Today should be a nice relaxing day. I feel like Sundays are always going to be my favorite days to work because neither of the managers work on Sundays, so it's just me, Bri, and Lys, and sometimes Gabe, who are all my favorite people to work with so far. I still haven't quite figured out Kelleigh yet. She's nice enough and she jokes around from time to time, but for the most part she's all work and not chit chat. Jenny, the assistant manager is a cool chick, she has a good balance of work and goofing around and she's just a funny lady. Sheri the manager is very laid back, almost to the point where I think she might be high or something. She is pretty expressionless most of the time and honestly I hardly ever interact with her unless we are swamped or unless I have a question about something operational because she literally stays in the back office ALL DAY. I don't know what it is about store managers, but every store manager I've ever had except for one or two has been an office shut in. I mean, I get that managers have to do a lot of grunt work and are kind of the "behind the scenes" people, but I have always been a believer in the manager being a part of the sales team and being on the floor too, which she very rarely ever is. But, other than that she is always helpful and hasn't really given me a hard time at all so she's cool in my book.

Other than that, everyone else is really fun and cool. Ali is a slight enigma for me, she's a cool punker chick and when she talks to me she's always really nice and cool with me, but most of the time we are at work together (which mind you is only Saturdays) she just walks around with a scowl on her face and she kind of intimidates me. It's partly that and she has one of those piercings through the bottom part of her nose which makes her kind of scary looking. Haha, but she is a really cool girl, I just haven't decided if she really likes me or not. I'm surprised at how much that really bugs me, but it really does, I always want people to like me.

But yeah, Bri is a sweetheart and is basically the same age as me and her boyfriend and Chris have a lot in common so I think a double date may be on the cards soon. Lys is a cute college girl, I think she is all of 19. She's funny and laid back. Gabe is a big tall dude with long curly red hair and glasses. He's an amazing cartoonist and he is really into comics and manga. He's goofy and nerdy and so therefore he's a friend. Javier is another cool person, lots of cool tattoos on his arms, all artwork related. He's part time in school and wants to work more. Don't work with him all that often but he's nice and he also likes to joke around, which is important to me because if I can't work with people who like to have fun, I die a little inside.

So, there is a little bit more about the peeps that I work with. I should probably get off here soon because I need to get ready for work. Should be a short and sweet day as long as I can find enough shit to do. I'm only there from 12-5:30. But, if last week was any indication it's probably going to be slow as hell and reallllly boring. But again, at least there will be no managers so I don't have to worry about people watching me. Not that I slack off at work all the time, but I definitely prefer not feeling scrutinized.

Oh, yeah, so almost forgot to talk about the whole bum finger thing. On Friday, I think it was at work, I ripped an hangnail/piece of skill off of my left ring finger all along the edge of my fingernail. I have done this before, it hurts like a bitch for a day or so and then it heels, no big deal. For the most part I'm not a big fan of band-aids so I let it go for the day at work, but that night it was really red and hurting so I washed it, put some Neosporin on it and put and bandage on it. The next day it started looking really grody. All sorts of liquids were coming out of it, it hurt really bad, was really red, my whole finger was warm and the cut was swollen all weird with this bulge thing coming out of the corner of my nail. Yeah, just all around gross. So, I just kept it bandaged and tried to forget about it. Then yesterday it was just disgusting and hurt so bad so I asked Chris to look up what I should do, and online all it really says is to wash the cut really well and soak it in hot water, and then do what I had already done with the bandage and Neosporin. So I got home and did the soaking thing last night, and then did it twice last night, and I'll admit it feels a little better but this morning it still looks bad and hurts, so I think if it's not improved by tomorrow I'm going to have to make an appointment to get it looked at. I feel so retarded though, I don't think I've had an infected cut since I was in grade school. Just another reminder to take better care of myself.

I'm thinking about scheduling a mamogram soon. Not entirely sure how I go about doing that, but I feel my boobs every now and then, and sometimes I feel lumps and bumps but I never know what is supposed to be there and what isn't, so I feel like I should go ahead and get one, but I'm kind of scared cause I know they hurt and I already have very sensitive boobies.

In other news, Chris and I's third year anniversary is this Wednesday. Sadly because of Chris's retarded work schedule we can't do anything that night but he has promised me a steak dinner on Thursday which is exciting to no end. Especially because we are going to a Casino :) It really hasn't felt like three years, it's gone by so fast. I'm still the luckiest girl alive though, he's the best.

I'm a little nervous for my first day of ballet class, but I think it will be fun. I plan on spending a good portion of my evening tonight working on the exercises. Again, I just want the girls to like me. Mondays are going to be crazy from now on, I have to work 9-5 then probably change at work and drive directly to the dance studio because my classes start at 5:30 and go until 7:30. Hopefully I can handle it.

Last but not least, I'll be training to be a keyholder at work this week. This week I'm just learning to open the store then I'm assuming I'll learn how to close as well, eventually. I was a keyholder at my last job too, so I'm sure it's pretty much the same thing, just counting the money and starting up the registers and such. My hope is that at the three month mark when all of my benefits kick in that I will get the raise that I was promised, but who knows, just have to wait and see. I just can't wait to have health and dental covered by my job. It might actually allow me to save some money for once in my life. Here's hoping!

Ok, I really do have to go now. I hope to blog more often again, but lately I just get so worn out from work that I don't do anything, and don't even get my started on the whole diet and exercise thing. Uggg, oh well, just got to do my best and that's all I can really hope to do.