So, obviously I've been neglecting my blog as per usual. Just read through my blog from February and I feel like so much has happened since that blog, but a lot of my feelings have stayed the same about where I am in my life. The big changes are that at the end of August Chris asked me to marry him!!! It was the most awesome thing ever and now I feel like I'm in this crazy stressed out whirl wind of a life where everything is revolving around the wedding. I'm trying to enjoy it but there is a lot that scares me, the majority of it having to do with money and how I have very very little. Like I initially really wanted to help out and pay for my own dress, but now that I'm trying on and falling in love with dresses that are upwards of $1,000, I'm starting to realize that this is not going to be something I can handle alone. My parents have already said they are going to pay for everything but I still can't help but feel bad.
But, despite all of the stress and the planning and long distance plotting it feels amazing that I'm finally going to be married to the love of my life. I pretty much knew from the first few weeks that we started dating that we were going to be in it for the long hall, and honestly I would have married him before we moved to Connecticut, but I was patient and here we are :) We are going back home the first week of November and already every day seems to be filling up with wedding planning trips and appointments. It seems like it's going to be fun, but not quite as relaxing as I had hoped it to be. At any rate, I can't WAIT!!!!!!
But other than that not much else in my live has changed. Like I said in my last entry I did end up quitting the dance center back in June. Which seemed to be in my best interest. And since then I have still been toying with the idea of going back to school or at least trying to find a job that pays better because I'm literally making jack shit right now. Really barely living paycheck to paycheck. Something needs to change in the new year. I really hope I can find a job with better pay and with benefits, but my chances seem slim with this crap economy. Who knows?
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Congrats on the engagement! Try to enjoy this ride as much as you possibly can. And in regards to the stress in your life, just vividly imagine yourself in ten years. Imagine every little detail of your life then and look back on to this phase of your life. You have survived and it's not shit compared to what you will deal with and have dealt with even before now. You only have one life to live, and I hope it's great!
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